I want to be like them
But my background wasn't come from it
While they already has that background

I want to be like them
But I am afraid to
Because I afraid if my 'akhlak' isn't
The same as my 'new' look

I want to be like them
But I don't have backup
To support me
At this time being

I want to be like them
But I afraid if I'm not strong enough
To be the same as them

Ya Allah , please guide to where I am suppose to be , how am I suppose to act , who am I suppose to lean.
I know  I have Allah and I really Miss Allah..