For this semester I only have one class to attend, six
credits of clinical rotation, and final year project which im already done with the viva
and just slowly finishing my thesis writing. For the first two weeks, my mind
couldn't be taken off from fyp viva. Days and nights were spent thinking and
revising the presentation slide. Thus, the first two weeks were already
occupied.
When I finished the viva, I was thinking, what am I gonna do
next? The fact that i only have one class made me feel like I have a lot of
leisure space. I spent quite most of my time watching drama *finished the Love
O2O series* since my viva was on the first day then I have whale of free time
until the end of the second week. But then, when the third week is approaching,
I started to realise that rotations and clinical conference are waiting to
greet me.
I was in the blue. Fighting with my inner self to gain the
spirit and force to be back on track. Need to study, fear of rotation with
large credits, but still, hard to make a move after a long break.
After a long run on Sunday, finally able to made a small move
to do some study for next day swine rotation. Slowly regain the pace and trying
hard to stay.
After the first day rotation day, it was a long day, need to
‘sertu’/clean the clothes from swine rotation, exhausted, fear, all in one, and
need to study for next day avian rotation. But, with my support systems, the
momentum made a small progress, my sleeping and tired threshold increase bit by bit.
Days goes by, the hustle and busy get real, rotations comes
with report, studies, impromptu quizzes continuously, but with the momentum and I'm back into my passion, doing what I love to do. Need to reduce whining as it just going to bring myself back into negative thoughts, take care of my body to stay healthy, nurture good relationship with people around me, and always choose to be happy. This year is about enduring all the challenges that will be face almost everyday, not
just during tests in the hall.
Anything happened just have to move forward, learn the lesson,
forget the mistake, less heart feeling, and stay kind to every soul I'm meeting. I realised
its all about momentum, keeping the ball rolling, but to start having the
momentum itself is not easy, when you are in stationary, a great force is needed, but
when you start moving, the force will be greater and allows you to grow stronger
and faster. Keep the momentum grow, and you will be unstoppable.
