My morning today start with a whatsapp text,
“Jemputan Walimatul ‘Urus..”
Aahh another good school friend of mine is getting married
next month. Until now, about 5 or 6 friends are already get into marriage life.
Everytime the invitation come, I question myself ‘semua orang pakat kawin,
hang?’
Last few months, my insta story feed fill with stories of my
friends that finished their thesis writing, submit their hardbound, getting
approval of graduating, getting job opportunity, having great CV prepared. My
insecurity creep in again, ‘apa yang hang dah capai?’
When your friends are seems to move faster in life than you,
the feeling of uneasiness, insecurity will come in. I do let it come, but
really, I make sure it come only just for a little while. I cannot lie to
myself that I don’t have that feeling. I’m just a normal human being.
What to do?
Crucial thing is to
convince myself that I still have a lot to achieve before I settle down into
marriage life (p/s, dear future husband please take note :P). Not to say that
after marriage life you cannot pursue your dream anymore, but just to convince myself
that every people life path is totally, TOTALLY DIFFERENT, thus I cannot and
really cannot compare my life to others, no matter how fast theirs seem to be. Because
I am a person who want thing to be fast, but I realised, I'm not good at handling it. But still, stubborn me, asyik nak benda cepat je, when others moving fast
in life, I’ll feel challenged and agitated.
Feel happy for others. I just started to learn how to feel
happy for others when I getting into my twenties. Before that I really don’t know,
then the negative feeling will creep in. Not good in describing this, but be
happy for others success and happiness, then you won’t feel left out ngee. But really,
you will feel the positive aura building in you.
The grass may seems
greener on the other side, but let get ourselves busy taking care of our own
grass till we forgot about others. Ticking off the goals and making ones will
going to make our life meaningful and cannot be compare to others, yet, at the
same time, appreciate the differences. I live in my dream, and I make it happen. May our best dream come true.
